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Sunday, July 13, 2008
Yeah I finally got a new computer (compliments of my boyfriend) and it doesnt take forever for programs to load. I can actually have conversations on IM and its just woo hoo. Of course now my bad habit is being on the computer constantly....I complain I'm on the computer all day at work (sadly both jobs are that way) and then I come home and viola...I'm drawn to this one. I need AA for computers: Hello my name is Ruby and I'm addicted to the computer LOL
Well I've babbled enough now... off to surf the net.
Current mood:  thankful Current music: tv in the background
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Is there really such a thing as toooooooooooooooooooo much basketball?? I'm thinking ummm...........NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I have been around basketball since 8:30am. My son and daughter played on the rec center league this morning and since I got home around 10:30am the NBA playoffs have started..WOO HOO...... it is now almost 9pm and HELLO I'm still watching ball. I hear all the time that its too much but its my house...my tv...my rules.
Current mood:  anxious Current music: NBA game on tv
Monday, February 4, 2008
Woo hoo
I have a working computer at home again. It has been over a year since I had this convience at home. I do forget that I have it and still take my papers to handle business at work (my bad)
Today is starting snowing in the am and its still all kinds of ugly outside. We ordered chinese from a new phamplet we got in the mail (it was disgusting), now we are making cup o noodle...it was that gross and my baby mikie wouldnt even touch it so you know its not good.
We had lots of family events happen over the weekend. To start the weekend off my son was accepted to Honor Band for the school district...he played at Horizon High school on Sat. That is one huge ass school, we walked in on Friday and were just in awwwwwwwww about how big the school was. The biggest problem I saw with that school was they only had officers and wanna be officers at the main entrance of the school and like 5 other back ways to get into the school. Hello!!!! that didnt give me warm fuzzies at all especially if I was able to get in the back way and no one ever questioned me (trust me i look nada like a school kid).
Then sunday we had a bday party for my cousin fernando who turned 1 and then managed to get my house volunteered as the place to watch the game. I ate more food in 1 weekend then I think I even ate over the holidays of Thanksgiving and Christmas!!! Thats lots of grub.
Ok I am just babbling so I will go back to enjoying my fabu cup o noodle.
Current mood:  hungry Current music: scooby doo in the back ground
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Ok I've come to realize more and more on a daily basis that I just dont get paid enough for the crap I do at work. I know a lot of people would tell me DUHHHHHHHH none of us do. Yet I come here happy as punch to this crappy job. I wish I could find a job that had an awesome supervisor like I do now and that actually paid my bills.
I have such a hard time when it come to going through the interview process and that is probably why I dont try very hard to get out of this dead end job. Well I have more fires to put out here at work so this is a short whine session.
Current mood:  bitchy
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
I truly hate when one week at work I am so overwhelmed I'm on the verge of tears the entire week...then viola the following week I'm so bored I have no idea what to do with myself....
It doesn't help that my back faces our big head person in the office so they can pretty much see every little thing I do on my computer. So far she knows I read people magazine on-line and espn.com is my addiction. We are also in the process of bringing a new system to our company...woo hoo by the end of the year I will be on 3 different systems I think I'll start pulling my hair out now >_<
Well it looks like its been 16 weeks since my last post O_o so to put whoever reads this up to date I am now back with my boyfriend/husband going on 3 months. We have our ups and downs and I have learned he is far more drama queen then I ever was in this relationship. I have taken his stone cold business professional attitude while at work and he HATES it.... Suddenly he is the needy you must pay attention to me person...WTF!!!
Well I guess I should stop whining and get back to work :0) so I'll post again in another 16 weeks....................
Current mood:  crazy Current music: Goo Goo Dolls
Friday, March 23, 2007
Wow.......I have not posted in months. Last time I was semi-happily married. As I post today I have officially been a single woman for 3 months. I have my roller coaster of emotions (doesnt help that we work for the same company and see each other EVERYDAY) but I believe I will be ok.
I guess I feel better writing out my feelings instead of constantly telling Sariochan about them, since she's trapped in a car with me on a daily basis I try not to dwell on the past. But how do you get over 3 years??!!! I have a great support system and always hear how strong I am....some days I dont feel that way. I sometimes lay home after a good work out and cry listening to songs we used to talk about, I really really want to sell our house, and just move out of the area completely. Granted it was MY first official home but we moved in together right away and viola...3 years into our relationship he decides raising someone elses kids isn't for him (especially since he never really raised his own 13 year old child) pays child support and sees her once or twice a year.
I'm just a case of ramble...blah blah blah
I have started seeing someone...but the questions are always there... Am I dating too soon?? Is he a rebound relationship?? I also feel like I should ask persmission to date.....Is that weird??
Geesh.............I guess I better get back to work, the boss keeps walking through my cubicle.
Current mood:  confused Current music: def leppard-bringing on the heart ache
Sunday, November 12, 2006
The last two weeks have been unreal...1) my aunt has a mild heart attack and has to be driven to the hospital from the school she works at. She is in her late 40's. The drs told her she needs to slow down, change her life style and get her lazy ass husband and two teenage children to start helping in their house..YEAH RIGHT!!
Then my 70 something uncle also has a heart attack...yet no one but my parents called to tell me about that one....no addition information
Then the clincher of the week: My 31 year old cousin suffers a stroke and his parents do not call any of the family. My aunt and uncle really stopped talking to others in the family over 3 years ago when my grandfather died. My cousin Gabe was also diagnosed with Diabetes.....the first out of the cousins to be told they have it. I'm more suprised that my overweight brother wasn't the first with diagnosis...Instead he the only one with high blood pressure (not a shocker if you know him). Any way back to my cousin Gabe, I had lunch with his sister Alex yesterday and I think if I had not asked if it was true she probably wouldn't have told me. Me and Gabe were super close once I moved to Denver after I graduated from High school. After we stopped working for the same company we just haven't stayed in touch. I feel bad and angry. Mostly angry at my aunt/uncle for not letting the family know. Granted we are a disfunctual family we are always there for one another. We all love Gabe........
Well I'm off to give him a call and let him know I'm here for him and miss him lots......
Current mood:  crushed Current music: News in the background BRONCOS!!
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Well I'm half typing half sleeping....oh and trying to figure out dinner cause if I don't make it we all starve around here.
Left work early today to take Gabi to the doctor. She is on meds and I have to take her back next week to get her toe nail removed. Stupid boys.......that stepped on her toe!!!!
Next week is our anniversary and I was excited about the limited edition Grease DVD that came out today. I rushed out and bought it for Tony....I even gave it to him early so that his sisters wouldn't spoil my idea. His reaction was not what I expected..."hmmm you shouldn't have spent the $$"
gee contain your excitement dip wad
Current mood: disappointed Current music: Everybody Loves Raymond
Friday, September 1, 2006
Hmm yesterday I had my tubes tied, today I don't feel any different. Don't know what I expected but I feel the same. Other then my stitches and some lower pain you wouldn't know anything major happened in my life. I say major cause I have wanted this thing done since I was 20. Can you imagine all the $$ I could have saved on depo shots, birth control pills, and all those vists to the dr.
Sounds bad I know, I truley love my kids but I am officially done. I'll be glad to baby sit and send them back but I don't think I could physically handle a baby again. Granted I'm only 32 and make myself sound like I'm 100 but I just don't visualize me starting over again.
Most of my friends and family who knew what I was doing were ok with it and happy for me, everyone except my mom. I think she was sad that this offically puts an end to her grandparent title. HELLO you have 2 of em and when I was pregnant you didn't really want them (read in her journal she wished i would miscarriage with mario). I just don't understand.
Maybe she wanted more kids but the dr told her no way, my grandma died during childbirth and the dr told my mom she could meet the same fate if she tried for anymore kids. Maybe thats why she took it so hard. My brother could give her more grandbabies if he learned to like kids.... Right now he is not in a place to do that. Short temper and can barely take care of himself.
I am fine with 2 kids and 2 cats that are more like kids. I love em love em love em.....they are mine and Tonys kids. And god forbid we do call off our relationship I get two more kids. Too bad I can't collect child support on them :O)
Current mood: sore Current music: A&E Investiages...
Thursday, August 17, 2006
well i'm going on almost 24hrs of not talking to my hubbie. yes he is around but we just haven't had much to say. or atleast i haven't had much to say...........not since i was called a bitch.
no reason for chit chat after that comment.
it all started over a stupid phone...his phone that apparently i need to figure out how to use. i don't think so, i know how to use my phone so i think as an adult (in numbers anyway) you really should be able to handle that simple task you would think.
i'm still really annoyed so it probabl won't be a long post just a quick writing of what an ASS he is......
Current mood: bitchy Current music: football on tv
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Ok the shit hit the fan at work today..............I came in this morning to an email from one of our head people and had announced that there were some major changes going on and who was taking over what duties. Apparently my friend Mel had found out since yesterday what was going on since it affects her titles and started balling and shaking uncontrolably in the hall.
She was so torn with this and unhappy about the decision that she actually gave her 2 weeks notice this morning. Her husband totally supports her decision however he did point out that she needs to be employeed by the beginning of September.
My dilema is that my hubbie has been trying for the last 7 months to get back into our company because he totally regrets quitting last july, Mel mentioned to our supervisor that hey he was looking to come back and that he could have her spot. Our supervisor was actually in tears, and the head person pulled mel into the office to defend her choice of person taking the job. mel pointed out that she didn't feel this person had enough experience to be an account manager and questioned what she was doing. and from that point on the head persons door was closed most of the day for behind the scenes meeting. Should I tell my hubbie that someone gave notice??? should i wait and see what our supervisor is going to do??? Again last night he mentioned that he was miserable where he was.
Mel questioned that if he got back into Kable if that would affect his decision to take the whole month of december off to go to vietnam.......i hope it would but he has it in his head that he is going and no one can say anything to stop him.
I want to tell him just so that I can point out his trip and not being able to go cause I know they won't let him take a leave of absence, its not medical or a family emergency.......
Current mood:  blah Current music: tv in background
Thursday, July 6, 2006
It's time for another edition of 'I'm selfish'
Ok where to begin....last week after not speaking to his mother for 2 years they are starting to make steps towards mending their relationship. Can't say they have a healthy relationship but I guess it's their thing. Anyway after their somewhat of a makeup he announces that he is going to Vietnam for 3 weeks in December.....umm hello...you just got a job a month ago and by December there is no way he could possibly take a 3 week vacation with pay. And it not a discussion it was just 'i'm going' and there is nothing you do to stop me.....
He also decided to tell me yesterday his mom wants him to go back to school before the end of the year...and she will pay for it. Thats all fine and dandy but they just started talking like a week ago and now he must jump through hoops to keep her happy. He is dying to get back into a company that is laying people off and he no longer wants to go to school for business mgmt, he now wants to be a history teacher...i guess it would be nice then he could bore his students with his history lectures and not me :O)
He finally decided to tell me that his mommy told him she would pay his half of the bills while he goes on vacation..ok well are you going to support him when he comes back and has lost 3 jobs not just 1??!!!
I ask myself daily what the hell am I getting myself into?? Am I that desperate to get married that I will put up with his shit?? Have I lost it completely???
Current mood: pissed off Current music: tv in background
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Ok I have called my parents for the 5th day in a row to check on them. They are right in the middle of the largest Colorado fire. Checking rockymtn news it shows that the fire is now 10 miles outside of town.
I talk to my mom and she is so calm as is my dad, ok a)never had a fire that close to home b) neither have my parents c) can't figure out what drug they are taking to remain so calm...or it could be all the smoke they have inhaled....I know if it was me I would be totally freaking out.
My kids are also ok with it, I guess it helps that my parents are so calm, but hello show some emotion people. I have been a train wreck since Tuesday...I catch myself flipping through 2 channels @ 4 and 3 channels @ 5...also 2 channels @ 9 and 3 again @ 10....all to see who they have chatted with in town and the latest updates. My mom has lived in town for 60 years, she was born there, and probably wouldn't know what to do with herself if she were ever forced to move. My dad has only been there around 42 years but is very calm about it all...He even went as far as to travel down a closed hwy 160 just to get home from Denver. Most people I think would have been afraid to travel that stretch..instead he was excited he had an entire road to himself with no possible chance of getting a speeding ticket. OF course it pays to have a company truck with the Costilla County Land/Code Enforcement logo on the doors...smooth sailing the cops just opened the gates and let him go through after they had just turned atleast 20 other non county official looking vehicles around and made them go the long route which is like an additional 2 hrs drive out of the way.
I always tell my friends how I hate going home cause there is nothing to do. I have vowed to my friends and some family today that I will set aside time once the hwy is reopened to the public (not just my dad) and travel back home. And be grateful that I still have one to come too.
Current mood: gloomy Current music: news on tv
Sunday, June 18, 2006
I am so annoyed, frustrated,hurt and insulted right now.
I busted my ass off trying to make a nice dinner for Fathers Day, I made potatoes, stemmed veggies and battered chicken strips...........I made the batter from scratch no packet, no receipe book....from scratch. I peeled and cut up the potatoes put my special seasonings and got those going. Stemmed veggies no problem a little water for the stemming and some butter for taste. My meal is almost complete............and husband of the year walks in and decides he needs to go out to dinner with his sister. Did he call and say we have dinner plans?? did he say oh i'll cancel?? NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I would love to know what control his sister has over him that everytime she barks an order he jumps. I can ask him 50 times to do something and I always hear 'i forgot' or 'oops'.
I am so pissed right now I just threw it all in containers and didn't even eat any of it myself.
Instead I laid on the couch for half an hour and cried............I am totally insulted.
Current mood: infuriated Current music: tv in the background
Thursday, June 15, 2006
It has been 4 days since my kids went with their grandparents for the summer........and I have called them every single day. Sure I complain about their constant fighting over stupid things while they are with me, but I truely love them and miss them terribly.
Sometimes they are more fun to deal with then my hubbie. *sorry*
The weather has finally cooled a bit and my brain is not frying. We have no ac, lots of fans, but no ac. The last few days have been miserable. No amount of water or advil or excedrine migraine could help my headache which I believe was in part to the toasty weather.
I'm just rambling on so I guess I will eat my spaghetti and turn in for the night...........
Current mood:  sleepy Current music: bball on tv
Sunday, June 11, 2006
The house if completely QUIET...................The kids are with my parents for the summer. I'm excited and sad all at the same time. My first official night with no kids and I get ditched by the hubbie so he and his sisters could go watch The DaVinci Code. Thanks but NO THANKS!!! I'm a little annoyed that he chose to hang out with his sisters but whatever.
Right now I am just glad he is employed and we are getting caught up on bills. It's sad that it took us months of struggling and not getting along to get that accomplished but we are making progress.
I might even be able to get back to my excercise class by the middle of the month. Might even be soon cause I know Shellie is working again and that leaves Sariochan alone at class. She has far more motivation then I do. When we tell her we aren't going to class she will still get the energy and go. I hate going alone so for that I give her props........
I am so tired I think I will go to bed extra early knowing that I no longer have to get up at 4:30 to get 3 people ready each day. It's just me ^_^
Current mood: blah Current music: Bball on tv
Friday, June 2, 2006
Yeah!!! I might actually get caught up on my bills. I just got a call from my ex husband telling me that he received his letter from the IRS telling him that his taxes were garnished. I can now look forward to getting $1500 and it couldn't come at a better time.
I know I have mentioned several times that we are struggling to keep our heads above water. My hubbie finally got a full time job and started with the company on Thursday. He has been working with the company through labor ready so he did still bring some $$ in this week. He finally told me he could once again start splitting the bills and buying the groceries.
This has been the worst time ever in our 3 years together. There for a while I wasn't sure if we were going to make it. I know what its like to struggle when its just you and your kids but throw in a husband and 2 cats and that is just OVERLOAD...
Fortunately I had a good support system..Thanks Sariochan...Thanks Shell...Thanks Easter bunny :O)
One more week and my kids are gone for the summer...Its that time to take seperate vacations *happy dance*.............I put in applications at King Soopers and Target for a part time job but never heard from anyone....I think right now I will focus on saving my $$ and eventually go back to jazzercise. I do miss going and its only been 1 week. I need new exercise shoes.....
Current mood: giddy Current music: tv in background GO MIAMI
Sunday, May 28, 2006
I am selfish??!!?? Ok I'm the one that has been footing the DAMN bills since February but I'm selfish...Can someone explain that one to me??
Yeah I'm glad you finally got off your lazy ASS and got a job. But apparently I am not allowed to vent or express how all of this has really pissed me off. I have not once muttered to his face how upset I've been since he walked away from his job in February and decided hey lets play video games and blast the stereo for 3 weeks before I decide I better look for work. Then realize how hard it is to find a job. I should know I looked for a job for 6 months back in 2004. Sure I should feel some sympathy but I actually went out everyday and looked, I also brought in unemployment. Not much but at least I was bringing in some $$.
This weekend was the first time in months he told me he could actually buy groceries. Very grateful because I couldn't do it, but when you buy candy bars and crap that you DONT need and then realize you are over your limit but refuse to put it back and then turn and tell me hey you pay the difference. Sure it was only $3 but my first thought would have been put the candy and other useless shit back....you don't need it!!
Current mood: pissed off Current music: tv in background
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Ok today was my last official day at Jazzercise Class :O( It was an awsome workout except I kinda hurt my knee**nice n puffy*. Sariochan was there with me so it was all good except Shellie ditched us....she didn't want her man trying to bring a computer from Longmont on the back of his motorcycle...I'd have paid some $$ to see that. It would have been entertaining..geeszzzzzzzzzz
Well I heard from my hubbie that I should be able to go back to class in July and by the middle of June we should be all caught up on bills. I'm way excited to hear that we will be caught up, that day seemed so far away. I shouldn't get too excited but I'll secretly do a little happy dance.
Work has been pretty busy the last couple of days. My client is pregnant and one big ball of emotional hormones so she must have changes right now. I don't help by being a little bitch about things...I need some entertainment at work :O)
The more I type the more I'm sad about leaving class...I just remembered I'm the one that brought the flyer to work to show the girls and get us all motivated to go.....*punches hubbie in the back of the head*
I will be BACK!!! and if we end up behind again he will be selling body parts/organs to catch us up DAMN IT.....
Current mood: numb Current music: bball game on tv
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
8:23PM
hey sariochan....i figured out the icon people...lovin the purple kitties
**happy dance**
Current mood: giddy
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